New Jobs means one step closer to having a baby

So, I have 2 new jobs. One is at the School near our house where I am working part time as a child care provider. The second, I got a job at Cracker Barrel. I will be a waitress. So hopefully I will make lots of money and get some bills to pay off and guess what CLOSER to start having a baby!!!!!!!! It's a job and it pays....

On another note, Zoey is getting so big. 35 pounds and growing. She is so funny. Sometime I will take a video of her and put it on here cause she makes us laugh about 30 times a day with her silliness.

Putting some color into this house!!!!

So for the past week I have been painting our living room and hallway. I was so excited when Marcus said we could go buy the paint! We have painted the living room Toffee Bar Brown. It looks so good with the white trim. Its a little dark but I don't mind. We are going to paint the kitchen a almond blush color. It's basically a yellow color. I wanted yellow with green accents. Now we just need to get wall hangings for the living room because the walls are so bare.

This weekend is our 1st anniversary. I can not believe it has already been a year. So much has occured in that time period. We bought a house, got a puppy, and doing things around the house. I Love our house so much. I am so grateful to be able to live in such a nice home our first year of marriage. Zoey our baby (puppy) is getting so big. I can not believe how much she has already grown in the two weeks we have had her. She has gained about 6 pounds in 3 weeks. It's crazy how much she has changed. She is so funny to watch first thing in the morning. And by I mean first thing in the morning its like 6am and i Hate getting up that early. She wants to play so bad and I want to sleep. So she runs from the living room to spare bedroom where her crate is and gets one of her toys. Then she plays for a while then gets bored with that and does it all over again. She loves to be held like a baby, but soon I will not be able to do that because she is getting to heavy to do that. We are taking her to the lake tomorrow to see how she likes the water. We also bought her a kiddie pool and she loves it so I can't wait to see how she likes the lake.

So thats about all we have been up to right now. Zoey is sure keeping us busy. Marcus is jealous because she likes me more. She does not leave my side. Its hard to even get her to play with Marcus and she does not listen to us either. She stats Obedience training next Sunday. We are excited about that because she does not know what "COME HERE" means either. We are also getting an underground fence put in Sat. We are very excited about that so we can just let her out and not have to worry about her too much and will not have to be out with her everytime she needs to be let out.

ZOEY our first born is here!!! LOL

So here she is. Zoey more to come later about her

More to come later

Struggling with this life God has put forth!!!

This morning as I am reading a Karen Kingsbury Book, "Take Three" I begin to realize life has not turned out the way I had always dreamed it would. Sure I have a wonderful husband who always provides, a wonderful house, clothes on my back, food in the pantry, covers to cover up with at night, and the list can go on and on!!! But for what? I had dreamed my entire life I would go to college, finish, and be a teacher. Well that did not happen. Yeah sure I went twice and quit twice!! I thought well I always love doing hair, so lets do that. Did it loved it and let some stupid imature girls ruin yet another dream!!! Thats all this life of mine has been, A DREAM!!! Loved my job, then got run off by those stupid girls. Yep my fault too!!! I should have stuck it out and then all these regrets would probably not be here. Then yet again there would be some other stupid regret to worry about. So today I ask my self, "What are you doing?" Get off this couch, do the laundry, clean the kitchen, put away the blankets, vacuum, clean the bathroom. But for some reason, I just sit and pray and cry and pray and cry some more. My husband is working while I am sitting on this couch enjoying a cool rainy day. Yes he keeps telling me I really need to get a job. You don't think I Know that? The more and more he tells me the more and more I don't want to. The more and more I resent myself for not finishing school, for wasting all that money that my parents paid and that my now husband is paying!!!! Yeah I know I clean and cook and do the laundry but for some reason that is not enough. Yeah sometimes I sub but its not even minimum wage!!!! I applied at Hobby Lobby this past week and when I told Marcus he did not say oh great. Instead he said thats too far to drive for a minimum wage job. Well guess what honey, its about all there is right now and I think I might actually enjoy it. And because I did not finish school nor stick with my hair doing days, I have to rely on a crappy minimum wage job. So I ask God,"Why do I not want a job, Why do I feel so down lately about this life I am leading?" And no answer yet. And "Why do I not enjoy the church we go to?" every Sunday and Wednesday its I don't really feel like going, but I go anyway because truthfully I do not want to hear Marcus lecture me about going. And everytime I tell him I do not like it there he asks me why and every time I tell him why, and I want to visit other churchs but NO he does not really want to. I feel so stuck in a town I hate, a church I do not enjoy and no friends to talk to around here. Marcus tells me that I will never have the friends like Anne where I can talk to about anything in this town that we live in. Its not like college he said you just don't get close to people as you get older. That is so different than what I thought about growing up. I thought this is the time where you make lasting friendships. Friends that your kids can grow up with. Friends that you can rely on through the darkest moments in ones life. So am I wrong, because its not turning out that way. Honestly I feel as though I am falling farther and farther away from God and this Christian life that I am suppose to be leading. Marcus and I never pray together, we rarely just sit and talk. We always have the TV on, or he is flying helicopters, playing basketball, or we are just both on the computer. I feel as though all I do is cook, clean, and do laundry and pick up after him. This is not the marriage I had dreamed of. And NO I did not dream that it would be happy all the time, But I did dream that if there was clothes to be folded he would help without me asking, or if their were dirty dishes he would help. But that is not reality I have come to see that now. Guys do not think that way do they? Mine sure does not. I just feel so much tension right now and we have not even been married a year.

Our 1 year is upon us and I feel like it is not important to him. I thought maybe we would just do something special he and I, and he plan something nice, not too expensive but when I bring it up, he just says when you get a job. Marriage is not suppose to be like that is it? I feel so lost. It's like I do not even know who I am anymore, who he is anymore. God I need help finding our way back to you first then to each other. But How do I do that. I don't know how. I am not a good communicator you know that, Marcus knows that, But I just am at a loss of where to begin. If I get a job will that change things? I doubt it, the problem is deeper than that. So Help me show me your guidance in this. Place something in my life to get back on track. If you are reading this, don't judge me, don't think that I am crazy. Just please if you pray, pray, if you could just keep it to your self. If you want to tell your husbands or wives then just say that WE need our prayers and leave it at that. Don't bring it up to other people who do not know me. DON'T GOSSIP !!

PRAYERS NEEDED Been a very hard day today for me

Craziness in the Conner House!!!

So its been very crazy around our home lately!!! We are finally moved in to our new house. Not everything is put away, but its getting there. I still do not have a job. I am working on trying to get a job as a site director for the Extended school program at a school near our house. Marcus has been working really hard at work, and is actually working on a Saturday!!! I have also put in an application at Hobby Lobby in Murfreesboro, but have heard nothing from them. Guess I will be calling them... I just wish I had a normal job, normal life. But I guess when you drop out of college then all the normalcy is shot out the window. It is quite depressing to tell you the truth.

Its raining today and I had plans to run some errands and now that is shot because I guess we are suppose to get some pretty bad storms. I want to paint, but that too requires money.. Since Marcus is the only one working then its hard to push the subject. We have decided on painting the kitchen an almond yellow color, not sure what color to do the living room yet!!! The sample yellow looks so good. I can't wait to finish it. My parents have been so wonderful and bought us a kitchen table and chairs, which look amazing!!! Mom and I also found this really great painting which is now hanging in our kitchen. LOVE LOVE IT!!!! Our living room walls are really bare right now, but hopefully soon we can fix that!!!!

We are going to adopt a dog from the animal shelter. I finally convinced Marcus to get a dog which I am really excited about. But now just to get Marcus to the shelter to pick one out. So thats been about it. I have been so busy with soccer too, a little overwhelmed to tell you the truth. Two teams 20 kids a little crazy.

ONE WEEK

FIVE DAYS till we close.!!!!! I am so very excited. We will get the keys on Sunday!!!! I will be there Monday cleaning the carpets and cleaning and getting it move in ready. Marcus and I are so very excited.

Today Marcus and I are going to Smyrna and Murfreesboro tonight to look for a Kitchen table and chairs and coffee and end tables .... We are excited to be updating our stuff.

Thats about all that is going on right now.. Can't wait to move!!!!

Its been a while and a lot has happened!!!!

WOW!!!! Its been so long since I have posted anything. I guess that means that I have been busy. Let me start by saying WE GOT A HOUSE!!!! Finally we found a house and should be able to move in the weekend of the 27th of March. I have started packing and cleaning the apartment. We are so excited. I wish I could paint before we move in but no money to do such a thing. We are so Excited. When I was calling around for quotes on Homeowners insurance, the Secretary of Farm Bureau agent we are going through is the one we are buying the house from. So I went and put in an application. They have not advertised the job yet so maybe I will have first dibbs.... Wish me luck

Something else has been going on that has really been wearing me down. My grandmother has been diagnosed with cancer. Not sure what kind though yet, they have already taken out her colon and the doctor was unsure in the beginning whether or not she would make it. But she is doing well and still waiting on the Biopsy to come back. He thinks that the cancer is very treatable with Chemo if she will do it. I hope she does, but I understand it is her decision and I respect that. She is not able to sleep so please keep her in your prayers.

On a lighter note, Soccer season is about to be in full swing again. They want me to coach two teams. One U8 and a U10. I hope I can swing doing both and hopefully have a job. I love coaching soccer and I am so excited about it. I just hope I will have enough time to get moved in and unpacked before games start.

PICTURES TO COME SOON!!!!!

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So we are still house hunting. We thought we had one but the seller is no where to be found or reached. Lets just say I am pretty pissed off. So here we go again and this time we are raising our amount in houses we can look at. So we will see if we can find something soon...

I also hate Valentines Day. Its a stupid holiday. Can you tell I am not in a good mood. Oh and I need a job and don't want one..... But when you have bills you have to work right. And a person always has bills. I hate any kind of holiday that a man has to be romantic. He should be romantic everyday. But I guess I don't get that either. I never have why should I have expected it now. Well thats about it....

Still Waiting

So, Marcus and I are still waiting to hear something about the house. Essentially we are getting the house, but we have to wait on many things before we can close. The Insurance Adjuster was suppose to go out this past saturday but they did not. Now we have to wait another week to see what the inspector says. I so hope that they say they will fix the roof.... Once we get past this part then we will be able to have everything else done. Then hopefully we will close by the 2nd week in March.

Housing update

So here is a housing update for you. We made another offer on the first house and he accepted it this time. With all the inspections and everything we should close in about 30 days. So wish us luck and keep your fingers crossed that all the inspections go well..

SICK SICK SICK

So I went to Cookeville Tn this past weekend and came home sick. It seems to be a reoccuring illness. I get this junk about every 2 months on the dot, and it sucks. I must have terrible immune system. I do not know what to do about it. going to the Doc today and hopefully he will be able to tell me what I can do. I can't take Vitamin C because I can't swallow the pills. What to do what to do..uUUGGGHHHH

Life

Ok in the last 2 weeks has been crazy and our life has changed a little. Marcus has been sick for three weeks now. I am now sick going on 4 days. Already went through a whole Kleneex box and half way through another one. We have been sleeping in separate rooms because we do not sleep good when we are both sick. Boy do I miss sleeping in the same bed as my husband.

As most of you know we have been looking at houses. I did not know how hard it would be. Yeah, we found a house that we really like, put in an offer and got rejected. On to looking at more houses. But nothing seems to be comparing to the house we really loved. Of COURSE that WOULD happen. So off to search again. By this time I am getting so stressed out trying to find a house. When we think we like one something goes wrong. At this point I don't even want to keep looking. We have a great apartment and i really like it. So I guess if we don't get a house then it won't be the end of the world. I just wish that I could get Marcus to look in Tullahoma too. But NO he does not want to drive 20 or more mins to church every week. Well I was ok with looking for a new church. I mean I like the one we are at, but there are not really many couples our age there. But he has limited our search to little old Manchester. Just wish we could get the cute house that we both really liked. Maybe we will make another offer and see what happens..

So we are also trying to plan and see what we are going to do this summer. We have now been married for 8 months and our anniversary is in May. If we buy a house we would not have alot of money to do a whole lot. We were going to go to a Beach somewhere with Marcus's Family but I do believe it will be too expensive. Marcus does not seem to care about what we do. Its our first year together and he does not seem to be even thinking about what to do. I don't care about doing anything expensive I just want to do something fun and exciting with my husband, so why can't he just plan something? Maybe he is and is going to surprise me but I doubt it. We are going to try and have some Pictures taken in our wedding clothes again because there are not any pictures of Marcus and I looking at the camera full length. So I hope we can do that, but we may not be able to.

Thats about all that is going on in our lives. I am still currently looking for a job, and Marcus is working hard as usual.

HOUSE HUNTING!!!

I HATE looking for houses. I Hate when you find one that you are in love with and then don't get it. I HATE sellers. I HATE House Hunting... Thats all I got for today

NERVOUSNESS

This whole house thing is really nerve racking. I really want this house. No counter offer yet. Put in an offer yesterday so it could be before next week before we have settled on a price. SO please pray for us in this new journey and chapter of our lives... OH NERVERACKING

House Hunting Blues

So Marcus and I have started our house hunting experience. So far its been ok. We went out Saturday a little and looked but was not thrilled with what we saw. We then had some friends of ours over and they said to get a realtor that they could help alot. We were a little unsure at first, but we know of a realtor that we go to church with so we thought we would let her help us. She has been great. She was quick to get an email out with listings in our price range and is ready to go tomorrow and look. We have about 13 house on our list. Surely we can find one out of those listings. We want to stay in the Manchester/ Hillsboro area. We both just want to be close to the boro and the city limits and church. We have found many houses that we really like but are to far out of the way. I have learned alot these last couple days in our house hunting experience. Like for God to give me patience and not get overly excited about something. Not to fall in love with a house that is out of our price range and the seller won't lower the price, and to trust my husband when he says "We have to broaden our search and not just look at few and decide" its hard to do. I have gotten many headaches just thinking about having to decide what ones to even look at. As of right now I have a headache. I just want to look at the ones we have found and then decide. I don't want this thing to take 2 months to decide what one we like and want to buy. I just want to be able to know when the right one comes along. I am tired of liking something and then the realtor says it just sold..... That has to be the most annoying thing. But it is a lot of fun looking at houses as first time home buyers and being newly married. We are very excited to see where God leads us. Maybe it is in a neighborhood where we can minister to someone or just make new friends. I know that where ever we end up it will truly because of Gods power and His alone. So to all my friends who read this we would greatly appreciated the prayers for God to lead us to the right area and home for me and Marcus... WISH US LUCK

HOUSE HUNTING!!!

WHHHHOOOOOOOO we have finally decided to buy a house gotta do it by april 30th to get the tax credit. so this has got to happen pretty quick. More later

THE AWEFUL JOB HUNT

So I started again today looking for a job!!!! So far I have applied to Starbucks, Walmart Salon, Homedepot, Foodlion, Walgreens, Rite Aide, and O' Charley's.. So far nothing. I officially hate looking for a job. So thats what has been going on.. Nothing new

Life with Me and Marcus

So, here is what has been going on lately!!! A lot has happened since Christmas so let me update you!!!! Well Marcus and I decided that I should not return back to school this semester. There are a lot of reasons why here are a few. For one, we really could use the extra money to pay off our loans from school, two, I was really stressed out with school and not even knowing I would get into the program in the fall. So I am now looking for a job. It's hard to find a job right now and I get really down about looking for a job too. But I know as soon as I get one it will be better than not having one and staying home all day doing not a whole lot of anything.

Marcus has been working really hard at work. I am so proud of him for being the man to support me in whatever I want to do. I really love that about him. If I have an idea he is always very supportive and even if I am not able to accomplish the task he is still proud of me. It has been hard on me adjusting to a new town and finding my place here in the world and he has been by my side every step of the way, encouraging me and supporting me in every way possible. I never imagined my life being this way and where it is at. Before we got engaged I thought I would be a hairstylist and work in a great salon. Well, that did not work out. Then I thought I would give the whole school thing a shot again and that did not work out either. So I ask God what am suppose to do with this life He has given me because everything that I have wanted has not worked out. So now I guess I need to let Him take over and lead me to where I am suppose to be now. I just have tried doing everything myself and life just does not work that way. I need Him to guide and show me what I am suppose to with this life. I am married to a great guy and all I want more than anything is to start a family with KIDS, house and a dog and maybe a few horses. That sounds great but one needs money to be able to do that. Well so thats about all that has been going on with us lately. Marcus has been working hard as usual and I need a job!!!

WEDDING DRESS UPDATE

So, after many phone calls and lots of threats. I finally have my dress back. It came at 10 am this morning. NO MORE WORRIES!! Now to decide whether or not to take pictures in May because of all the trouble we went through.

Update on the Dress

So, I JUST RECIEVED AN EMAIL FROM UPS WItH A TRACKING NUMBER..... I won't believe it until it is in my hands. But is still believe that we are going through with the law suit and I also put in a message to Andy Cordan at news 2 with Thats Messed Up! So I hope that I can air this on the news and let other brides know to NEVER shop with A Brides Storey...

Finally some action happened!!!!

So, after my mom got the call from the Gown Preservation Company in New York, they told her that they have seen all the emails, talked to Melissa Wilson from A Brides Storey, and heard all that was going on, they decided to let my mom pay like 180.00 to have my dress shipped to my moms house directly. They told her that they had talked to Melissa Wilson from A Brides Storey and that they told her if she does not pay for the dress to be shipped today by 1pm then my mom will be paying for it. Then we are taking a Brides Storey to small claims court in Murfreesboro. OH BOY!!!! How is that moms can always seem to get things accomplished its crazy how that works. So, today around 1:30pm my dress should be on the truck to be shipped to me. Yay!!!! A Brides Storey has been difficult to work with since we bought the dress and I should have known better to send it back to them.... The excuse that A Brides Storey gave us was stupid because the Nosedive in the economy has been going on for over a year now and that is no excuse to tell your brides. So thats basically whats going on now so by next weekend I should have my wedding dress back in my hands and I am so excited. A NOTE TO ALL THE BRIDES OUT THERE, DO NOT EVER SHOP AT A BRIDES STOREY!!!!

Updates on the DRESS

So, last night I called her again and to make a long story short she did not give me any information. At this point Marcus came home and I was crying. He told me everything would work out and I would get my dress back. Well, as I do believe I will get my dress back, A Brides storey is a no good business to deal with. I mean what business tells you that there is a complimentary service and you take them up on it and it takes 6months or more to get a dress cleaned and preserved. What a load of crap.. So I called my mother this morning. Moms can always get things done. Why is that? I go through the whole story of yesterday and by the time I am done she is already saying I am sueing!!!! OH BOY HERE WE GO!!!! I tell her not to think that yet.. I tell her to call A Brides Storey first see if she can get anything out of them and then go from there. So she calls, guess what? She gets the answer I was wanting yesterday with no problem. Now, why could they not take less than 5 mins to tell me that instead of telling me they would call me back???? They told her because the nosedive of the economy they do not have the money to send to the preservation company in New York to get the dress back. Well let me tell you something, this economy problem has been going on for a long time now, so if that is the case you should have never sent my dress off to begin with if you did not have the money. UUURRRGGG!!!!! So my mom basically said "So, you are telling me that, my daughter won't get her gown back until YOU have the money to get it back?" Ok and she hung up... She called the preservation company to see how much it will be to get my dress back and pay for the fees? No answer yet the lady should be calling her back from the preservation company. So as of right now, still no dress!!!! My mom is calling our lawyer to find out if we have any grounds to sue A Brides Storey..... So basically I am so frustrated that I have a terrible headache and my heart is racing. I know that some of you are probably thinking that this is really silly its not like I am getting married, but when you pay for an expensive item you want it back in a timely fashion. It has now been 7 months since I have seen my dress and I just want it back!!!!

Weding dress Woes

I am fuming right now. If you could see me, I have flames coming from my head!!!! So most of you know that I have had problems with my wedding dress every since I purchased it. Well stupid me sent it off with the company I bought it from to have it preserved.... I should not have done that... So they said it was sent in July the first time I called them.. That was a lie cause 3 months later when I should have been expecting my dress nothing!!! So I called and they said oh no it was not sent then it was sent the first of October... So I have been patiently waiting for the last 12 weeks. I was thinking about it today and decided to see what was taking so long.. I called the preservation company first, they said I should contact the bridal company. I called them and they said when they have the money to have it sent back to them and mailed to me is when I get the dress. They said because of the economy they have to take things slower that is a load of CRAP!!!!! They lady said let me call you back in 20 mins that was at 2:53 pm today and it is now 4pm and still nothing nada a phone call. I am about to call back and this time I am not letting her tell me she will call me back because the reality is that she won't. Stupied *****!!! Can you tell I am mad. I spent 1,000 dollars on this dress it better get back to me the way I bought it. UUUURRRRGGGG!!!!!!